Heheh... My mood is unexpectedly good right now. Don't be misguided by my post title!

 The title is for the unpleasant event that happened to me this morning.

So I was weighing some chemicals in the weighing room in the morning as usual. I saw the research lab staff walked in, scanned the room for like a few seconds. I was a bit worried that I did something inappropriate but I thought I did nothing wrong so I just ignored her and continue doing my thing. Suddenly she came over to me and asked for my name. I was like, aw oh, must be something wrong already. I said my name, then she showed me the logbook and said nothing but showed me a serious-if-not-fierce face. Then I immediately knew what was wrong. I didn't write my name on the logbook whenever I use any equipment! Frankly speaking, I totally forgot about this because NOBODY in my group do this since day one! Moreover, I think many people also didn't write their names when they're using equipments!

I was stunned (and a bit frightened in my heart) and didn't know how to react but she just kept staring at me! WTF so I blurted out a word: "Oh."

She's still staring.

"Have to write ah."

Still staring.

"Okay."


Then only she left. WTFFFFF. After that my group members told me to stop weighing coz the formulation need to be changed so I faster tidied up the place and left coz she's still in the room cleaning the equipments! After that only I felt dulan! Super dulan! Why can't u say nicely huh?! You PMS or what?! People can't make mistake one is it?! So rude! And don't forget you're an employee here and technically we are the customers! I've heard that research lab staff can be authoritative but still when I finally get a taste of it I still cannot contain my anger!

After a while, a group member of mine went to weigh things in that room and also kena the same thing by her! And he more dulan than me. He thought she was a medic student LOL. Actually I told some of my group members about this already maybe he didn't hear.

I think maybe the lab staff also kena scolded by lecturer or what lah. Coz last week I saw a professor came into the weighing room and exclaimed that the weighing balance was so dirty! So maybe the prof. complained to the research lab office. Haha serves you right lo! Who tell you no come clean regularly! The fungi was all over the weighing balance since the day we started using it lo! So maybe the lab staff finding someone to blame and so suay I was at the wrong place at the wrong time doing the wrong thing WTF! But walao, so many people after using equipment don't register in the logbook. If the people using after me made a mess but didn't register name, and the last name on the logbook is mine, then I mah kena lo? So stupid if we write our names like what they told us to. Moreover, I saw a lecturer made a really dirty mess at the weighing balance there before! He spilled powder and water all over the bench surface and just left without cleaning it! I cleaned for him since I'm such a neat freak (see? Ms lab staff, I cleaned for you, you still be rude to me!).




OK talk about my research now. Last week was quite easy because we were already familiar (might even be pro wtf) with what we're supposed to do and just kept doing repetitive work only. But this week onwards have to start working from 7AM to 9PM liao. No problem for me I think. Haih but I don't know whether this weekend I have to stay back at hostel again or not :( Last weekend I didn't go back home because every other day we have to measure the samples for stability study.

So far we hadn't got scolded by our supervisor (remember she warned us before we decided to choose this research). Probably because we all are responsible people xD I think we are so much better than our previous batch seniors whose under her last year xD

Actually to be honest, I'm grateful to have two group members who are so geng. Although our supervisor helped us in any way that she could, she didn't spoon feed us by teaching us how to do everything. She let us plan some of the procedure ourselves because she wanna train us to be researchers. Whenever we face difficulties or challenges in our research, we will seek her opinion but in the end she usually let us make the decision ourselves. And without the aforementioned two members, I don't know whether we are capable of reaching the stage we are at now. We developed our own method of producing microemulsion, cream gel, etc. by trial-and-error. We developed our own cream formulation. In fact, I think THEY are the one who produced the formulation. I'm just a "calefe" or a minion helping them do the unimportant things like recording results, cleaning etc. Not that these are unimportant, these are equally important for the research to run smooth but you know, these are just small things that can be done by anyone.


Digress a bit, I realised that I like cleaning! People always just throw all the used glasswares into the sink but I cannot tahan see dirty things I would wash for them. They always don't clean up the benches in the weighing room and whatsoever but I again cannot tahan so I tidied up the benches. Moreover, I think since I moved into the master bedroom in my hostel, I'm the one who always cleaned the bathroom while my roomie never really clean it? But it's okay! My bad to be a neat freak! WTF Does this mean I'm meant to work as a cleaner?! Haha kidding!

I'm not sure about my own ability though. Maybe I just can't think as fast as them. I always think that I'm slow. Maybe if they're not in my group, I would also be able to reach a conclusion of my own eventually, although I might take a longer time. Every time during a meeting with supervisor, I would stay almost silent the whole meeting. I literally have no idea what to say because they think and talk too fast. And I would feel sleepy. I heard some where that stress would cause sleepiness. Perhaps when I cannot understand what people saying I will feel stressed then it will lead to sleepiness.

Anyway, the more time I spent with one of the group members who is very geng, the more good things I discovered about her. She's not only good in studies, she's also good in communicating and socialising and knows a lot about life. I know these didn't come naturally to her, she must have been learning and practicing a lot coz she isn't genius. She must have achieved all these by hard work. I think it is a good opportunity for me to learn from her by working with her.


Wow this post has gotten so long... I'm gonna stop here haha.