Sup~

I'm blogging on CNY eve when I'm supposed to be having "quality time" with my family, I know.

Actually, I sneaked out from my relative's house (which is just beside my house) and came back to my home sweet home.

I know this is very inappropriate but I just cannot bear the boredom anymore =3=

Haiz CNY... The only things I like about CNY are holidays and a reason to buy new stuffs I guess. See ah... Fireworks- HATE TO THE MAX. Reunion dinner- quite meaningless to me, sad to say. Angpaos- don't really care since I never used them anyway. Biscuits - haiyo I everyday eat snacks until sien liao but still nice lah hehe.

OK I've digressed a bit. This time the reunion dinner is worse than last year. Probably because last year was considered my first reunion dinner after so long. Now, story time. My mum had some "unhappy incidents" with my aunt who lives next door. Therefore, we never went over for reunion dinner since those incidents. According to my mum, she didn't invite us also. It's been like that for few years until my grandpa becomes very very old and weak, then my mum decided to go over for reunion dinner last year, thinking that would be my grandpa's hope. OK loh.. Actually I prefer to go out for dinner and watch a CNY movie one :/

Haiz but I really cannot tahan... Boredom is still ok for me u know... I'm used to boredom and I know how to live in my own fantasies when I'm bored. This time not only did I feel sien, I some more felt like an outsider :/ WTF

It's nobody's fault. My relatives are all nice people. The thing is since small I'm a very quiet kid and after all those years of absence from reunion dinners and gatherings, I hardly know any of them! PLUS I'm an introvert who only talks to people who are close to me.

The maternal side family is better by a little only hahaha. At least I have ONE cousin sister who I'm close with LOL. Sounds so sad... I even don't talk with my siblings except when I scold them or argue with them or command them to do stuff lol. NEVER heart-to-heart talk. All probably because I'm introvert? But actually I don't feel it's necessary to talk so much, just that people keep saying I SHOULD try to talk to them. But that is not me!

The only reason I think it's important to socialise is to widen connection and then can ask for help when needed =.= Does that make me a cold-hearted materialistic person? I don't think so. I just have my own life principles. Lol principles kononnya.

Something awkwardly funny just happened. Someone who stays one floor below us just asked my housemates a favor. Apparently, there's a used pad somehow stuck on his bedroom window =_=. He initially asked my housemate to wash down the pad from my housemate's window but it didn't work. Then my housemate offered to remove it for them with hands lah since he said his house is all-male. LOL Who the hell threw a used pad out of window?! Gross...

That aside, I won something online again o.O I think this is the second time I won something online. This time I won a doggie bak kwa for my dog! Lol but need to go Ikano to collect it~ Don't know whether I'll be able to collect my prize this time~

Haha this is just a short post~ Since tomorrow I have no class, I'm going to watch Flowers in the Attic now~ o.O It's a really new TV movie just being showed on american TV about 2 days ago. Google it and you'll find out that it's a rather bian tai movie...lol ahahaha perhaps I'm a bian tai. That explains why I like to watch this kinda movies? Or perhaps I'm just easily bored and like seeing fresh things?

Speaking of my rather weird preference, I think only my cousin sis and few high school friends have an idea of how bian tai I am. Lol I'm actually not really that bian tai, am I? The thing is, I think my uni friends don't really know me... I don't blame anyone coz we are so busy that we hardly have time to bond. We are not like other gangs which always go travelling or makan. It's just that, I feel like I cannot open my heart fully to uni friends... I just always fear that they might judge me...But it's ok! It's not a bad thing! We are what we meant to be! Everything happens for a reason :)

Well, you can see that today I have quite a good mood! I'm a very moody person and my personality and aura change with my mood o.O Is that even possible? If u meet the "me" in good mood then you will think I'm a friendly person. But if you meet the "me" in emo or angry mood then you will think I'm a cold person o.O And when I'm in a good mood, I'll be an optimistic and happy-go-lucky kind of person. Whereas when I'm in a bad mood, everything I think will be negative. Haha maybe I'm wrong maybe I'm just thinking too much.

Just realised this post has random thoughts...hehe I go watch my movie liao~

Actually I feel quite lazy to type this blog post. Thanks to all the happenings this week I'm mentally exhausted until I just want to stop making decisions for a while, be it small decisions like what to eat /what to wear or big decisions like whether I should study or watch drama lol. But there is something worth writing about I guess.

Well, regarding the last post, I had decided to go Taiwan. Industrial might be very boring so don't care lah I chose Taiwan. Now we are just waiting for the hospital to respond to our application I think.

Just when I thought I had one less thing to worry about, the research topics for Semester 7 was out on Monday morning. We had a lecture when the module coordinator announced to us. We were told that we should find the lecturer of the research topic that we are interested in and discuss with the lecturer to understand what is it about. Then after that during the lecture, can see people went out to washroom (probably you're thinking why is this so important to be mentioned, you'll see).

OK, the lecture ended. My friend who had an agreement with me to do same research topic asked me what topic I want. We simply chose one topic that looked easy and supervised by nice lecturer. So we headed straight to the lecturers' office area, thinking we were one of the earliest students who started looking for lecturer. Why were we so naive?! There were already few groups of students calling lecturers' extension number outside of the office areas. Of course.

We called our lecturer but no one's answering! We waited and called numerousssssssssssss times but still couldn't find her! People keep asking which lecturer you're finding, but everyone's being so secretive. My friend told me not to let others know the topic we were aiming at, coz she's afraid that others will compete with us. Actually later I thought about it and still don't know what's the point of doing that =.=

We even skipped our meeting with lecturer and group members for Toxicology project (sorry, sir! Turned out the meeting was rescheduled coz nobody went lol). Luckily we had no class later in that afternoon. Since we couldn't reach the lecturer through phone, we thought we might as well wait for her outside of the office area. So we waited from around 2pm - ?pm (not sure until when coz I lost track of time but it was evening already). While waiting our eyes were like the light of a lighthouse, scanning the elevators and the corridors with the hope of spotting the lecturer.

Arghhhh then at ?pm, FINALLY THE LECTURER APPEARED! She came down through the elevator in the midst of a bunch of students. We dashed towards her with smiles on our faces and she told us with a smile on her face too that all the places were taken. Full stop.

KNS.... I felt like shit lol. We couldn't find her anywhere and waited for like few hours then others got to her first?! How could this be possible?!!!! That means 3 students already found her before us!

Well, anyway we tried to find other lecturers also. I kinda forgot what happened afterwards but all lecturers also couldn't be found or places taken lah! Then we went home very emo-ly. Well, my friend more emo than me lah actually I was just a little frustrated. I was angry because of the unfairness and the flaws of the system or whatsoever. In fact, the total places allocated for the topics were not enough for every student in our batch!

Eh...Type until here I'm a bit lazy to continue already. So let's get to the gossip part... hehehe. Tuesday was a holiday so perfect time for gossip! In short, a friend told me that some people didn't get the place but they told others the places are all taken, but actually the lecturer might be on leave! WTH? Why so mean one? And we guess many students already went out to find lecturer during the class (remember they went out to washroom?). I know who got the topic of my first choice already. I don't know how but they found the lecturer when she just came out from Academic Affairs Department and straight away asked for her signature! Didn't even need to discuss WTH. Moreover, I heard that there are also many people competing for the overseas research and they will have a selection process I think. Wah... IMU so many rich kids....They said go Europe for one month need around RM60k leh... Including the Europe tour lah! So envious.... My dream........

Anyway, me and my friend sent three emails to different lecturers. Only one lecturer replied us WTH =.= And guess what?! The lecturer was on leave on Monday so she said she is available from 10am-12pm on Wednesday! We were so happy when we knew this! Although it was not our first choice but it was still a lab-based research instead of a community-based one.

Apparently, not only us got the email from the lecturer lol. When we reached the office area by 10am, there were already a group of students discussing with the lecturer in the discussion room. We thought we had no hope already so we didn't dare to interrupt but in the end we also went into the room. We were told that this research will be very tough, we might even have to stay overnight in the lab for 3 days, we might have to repeat it if fails, and we might also get scolding =.=

We considered for quite a lonnnnnnnnnng while and decided we wanna accept the challenge! Actually it's more like no choice already, not because we are so motivated lol. Actually the lecturer was supposed to take 3 students only but since the places were not enough she accepted 8 students including me and my friend!

So, I guess I have nothing to worry about for now... Just a lot of lecture notes are pending, and a portfolio and Toxicology project. Busy week but I just wanna go shopping! Haiz...

Lastly, I think this is the first time I truly experience what people always say about university friends. I think this research topic battle will cause some relationships to crack because I heard some unpleasant things happened. Umm, as usual, nothing too bad happened to me lah haha, thank God.


Sorry if this post is too boring coz I also no mood to continue when I typed until halfway lolol.

OMG I'm so stressed out recently~ Everyday 8am class + a big decision to make!

The question is whether to do my elective posting in Tzu Chi Hospital, Taiwan, or pharmaceutical industry.

I tried to do the "Pros & Cons List" for both options in my mind, but the it seems to be unhelpful. Let see how if I write it down.



Tzu Chi Hospital, Taiwan
Pros

1. Taiwan is one of the places that I would like to visit! Never been there before! It's a food and shopping paradise! Eat, play, travel~~~~~~~~
2. From a blog I read, Tzu Chi Hospital is a very good hospital. I think I can see and learn different things from there. In fact, I'm interested to visit Tzu Chi Hospital. From what I've known, Tzu Chi people are really good at taking care of people lol.

Cons

1. Very troublesome. Going overseas is never an easy task. Passport, visa (?, might be staying there for more than 30days), air tickets, application, interview... So many things to do that I'm afraid I will mess up anything!
2. The cost is definitely VERY MUCH MORE EXPENSIVE than doing electives in Malaysia. I've roughly counted and the total expenditure (including air fares, food, accomodation, transport and shopping) would be at least RM2000, that is if I spend very kiam-siap-ly. If I want a more comfortable and enjoyable trip, I think I would have to spend around RM3000-RM4000. Of course, I don't have that much money. I definitely will use parent's money. :(

Pharmaceutical Industry
Pros

1. I might want to work in pharmaceutical industry instead of hospital after I graduate. So, this might be the only chance to go experience it beforehand. If I miss this chance, I'll have to go industry during my PRP training for 2 YEARS. If I hate it then I'm doomed lol. Moreover, if I do PRP training in industry, then I change my mind I want to work in hospital later on, I doubt that any hospital would be willing to accept me. Furthermore! I have chance to do hospital posting in semester 8!

Cons

1. Might be boring loh. I don't know exactly what we will be taught to do in industry but people always say industry is more boring than hospital =.= For me, I rather do nothing and laze around instead of talking to patients. That being said, I also get bored easily... So... I wouldn't know.

OK, I know I wrote more about Taiwan but that doesn't mean I want to go Taiwan more. Actually it's 50/50. Certain points have higher weightage, like the cost, and the fact that I might miss the chance of working in industry in advance.

Actually, writing down the list does help! I think I might be choosing industry since it's kinda like a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. I think I can still apply to Tzu Chi Hospital after I graduate, if I want to. And I can travel to Taiwan anytime I want.



UPDATE: OMG after thinking about it again, I might be going Taiwan. @@ Well, I'll have to make my decision before tomorrow (10.01.2014)!!!!