Sup~

I'm blogging on CNY eve when I'm supposed to be having "quality time" with my family, I know.

Actually, I sneaked out from my relative's house (which is just beside my house) and came back to my home sweet home.

I know this is very inappropriate but I just cannot bear the boredom anymore =3=

Haiz CNY... The only things I like about CNY are holidays and a reason to buy new stuffs I guess. See ah... Fireworks- HATE TO THE MAX. Reunion dinner- quite meaningless to me, sad to say. Angpaos- don't really care since I never used them anyway. Biscuits - haiyo I everyday eat snacks until sien liao but still nice lah hehe.

OK I've digressed a bit. This time the reunion dinner is worse than last year. Probably because last year was considered my first reunion dinner after so long. Now, story time. My mum had some "unhappy incidents" with my aunt who lives next door. Therefore, we never went over for reunion dinner since those incidents. According to my mum, she didn't invite us also. It's been like that for few years until my grandpa becomes very very old and weak, then my mum decided to go over for reunion dinner last year, thinking that would be my grandpa's hope. OK loh.. Actually I prefer to go out for dinner and watch a CNY movie one :/

Haiz but I really cannot tahan... Boredom is still ok for me u know... I'm used to boredom and I know how to live in my own fantasies when I'm bored. This time not only did I feel sien, I some more felt like an outsider :/ WTF

It's nobody's fault. My relatives are all nice people. The thing is since small I'm a very quiet kid and after all those years of absence from reunion dinners and gatherings, I hardly know any of them! PLUS I'm an introvert who only talks to people who are close to me.

The maternal side family is better by a little only hahaha. At least I have ONE cousin sister who I'm close with LOL. Sounds so sad... I even don't talk with my siblings except when I scold them or argue with them or command them to do stuff lol. NEVER heart-to-heart talk. All probably because I'm introvert? But actually I don't feel it's necessary to talk so much, just that people keep saying I SHOULD try to talk to them. But that is not me!

The only reason I think it's important to socialise is to widen connection and then can ask for help when needed =.= Does that make me a cold-hearted materialistic person? I don't think so. I just have my own life principles. Lol principles kononnya.