This study week has been an eventful one.

The biggest event would be the passing away of my grandfather, although it didn't feel overwhelming. It all happened so fast that it just felt like an ordinary event :/

Then, there was an incident where my dog was "giap"ed by the auto-gate o.O and the flare-up of my allergic rhinitis wtf!

I want to blog about the funeral as thoroughly as possible because it was quite interesting I must say. However, due to this event I'm afraid I couldn't finish my revision on time. I don't like to do last minute revision so I'll have to delay the blogging. Hope I'll still remember most of the stuff I want to write!

As for my allergy, I've finally succumbed to medication =_= I really cannot afford to be awaken by cough every night, especially not during my study week! So the next day after the funeral procession, my dad brought me to the pharmacy to buy supplements and my allergy med. While we were there, I confirmed with the pharmacist that I'll be doing "internship" there for 3 weeks during my Semester break.

I innocently expected the antihistamines to work miraculously =.= I thought once I take it all the discomforts will vanish (heh, pharmacist kononnya ._.). But luckily, the antihistamines did work! I think I could only feel the effect on the second day. I CAN FINALLY SMELL SOMETHING! Still, I woke up during the night; not from coughing, but I don't know why I woke up (woke up just for a while then went back to sleep, before I took the med I woke up and cough for A FEW HOURS then only can sleep).

That's all for now... I would like to blog more about the funeral and my allergy in separate posts.



PS: RIP my kind grandfather.

ARGHHHHH I kinda fed up with my allergic rhinitis already!!! Worst is the itchy nose (repeated sneezing), followed by congested nostrils, cough with phlegm, runny nose, itchy eyes, itchy ears  ETC ETC. DAMN IT I think it's getting worse!!! Why am I born with such body?!?!?! Scratch that. Maybe I brought it upon myself because I didn't clean my hostel room for like, 6 months +++?!

OKAY. So after I realised this might be the reason, I wanted to clean my room for ages but there were assignments, tests, stuffs. Then, there's the water rationing @$%@#$%^@# Then just now I cannot bear with it anymore! I cleaned the ceiling fan! The spider webs are still on the walls though, I have to clean the whole room if I want to clean the webs. STUPID WATER RATIONING!!! I PLANNED TO SPRING CLEANING MY ROOM BEFORE STUDY WEEK DE! Still, after I cleaned the fan, my nose still itchy sometimes and it makes me sneeze then the mucus will spray out lol seriously it spray out sometimes if I couldn't get a tissue in time to cover my nose xD

ARGHHHH Thinking of doing immunotherapy... I think that is the best thing to cure my allergic rhinitis! Though I believe it is very costly. Probably after I earn money then. So, what can I do for temporary relief? I strongly against using steroids or antihistamines although my fellow pharmacy course mates keep telling me to use them. The solution is FEBREZE ALLERGEN REDUCER! LOL It just suddenly came to my mind so I googled it. Not sure whether it is available in Malaysia coz I cannot seem to find info on that in the Internet. OK First thing to do when I hit the mall this weekend -- find FEBREZE!

Haha just suddenly want to ramble about my current pain in the arse! Apparently, allergic rhinitis is often underdiagnosed, undertreated and UNDERESTIMATED! That's what I did; underestimated it! Come to think of it, all these years my eyes are always itchy since small and I didn't think much about it. Now I know it's because of allergic rhinitis! My dad told me he had allergic rhinitis since secondary school also =.= WTH. I think he went to the doctor to cure it or something but it didn't work. Haiz so now he snores really loudly. Will I snore like him too? :O THE HORROR. I'll definitely get allergy shots in the future :O



PS: Really hope Malaysia got sell FEBREZE ALLERGEN REDUCER! Worth a try!

Wohoo! What a tiring but fulfilling day!

Fulfilling because I bought something :P That is my new external hard drive!!!!

I've wanted to buy a HD for soooooooooooo long! I want to backup my fav movies and games! But because of my stingy nature, I wanna look for a cheap HD but with good quality one!

So, finally at PIKOM PC FAIR~ I bought this!

I found my life rather meaningless these days.

There were so many things that I've done these days that others might perceive as "meaningful", but nah not to me.

First of all, visiting the old folks home obviously should be a meaningful thing to do. Well, the only thing I learnt is I'm so useless, in the sense that I couldn't even chat with the elderly. Some people are just so natural with this, and I'm so so envious of these people. I couldn't even chat with someone of my age (OK not every time).

I feel like my brain works so slow during conversations and I often don't know how to react/respond appropriately. So, to avoid giving a wrong response I have to think for so long, then I might as well just forget it. This is the problem of most introverts out there I think. Sometimes I hate being an introvert, I wanna be an extrovert, but on the other hand, I also hate the noise that extroverts make, that they are not as considerate. For example, my mother and my sis (not sure she introvert or extrovert though, but she sure is the most extrovert among the siblings). Erm, I don't hate my mother's noise (though I think her voice is very loud), but I super hate my sis's voice o.O I also don't know why! Is it because she always says things without thinking or just plainly her voice that is so annoying?! There are other extroverts that I know but I cannot mention it here hehe. OK out of the topic already!

So during the visit, I'm assigned to measure blood pressure for the elderly (I asked my friend who was the activity planner to give me the job one wakaka). Ugh, and I thought it should be easy. No. There was this old lady whose arm was too big and I couldn't even secure the cuff. Then, I didn't know what to do, wanted to find the lecturer but he was not around, so I looked around helplessly. Then, a course mate came, she offered to use her hand to hold the cuff in place... o.O After that, something funny happened. As you all know, the cuff will inflate when it is measuring right? It inflated to the extend that my course mate couldn't hold it anymore so it just opened. xD I tried very hard not to laugh out of professionalism, and I did not, maybe a hint of smile xD I feel funny not because of anything but our stupidity!!! xD

Then, there's a popo who's 80 something if I remembered correctly, talked a lot to me after I finish measuring her blood pressure. I told her that her BP was kinda high and asked her to see a doctor (=.= typical noob pharmacist), then she said she couldn't sleep because her sister got this cancer, her brother got that cancer, her cousin got what cancer.............................................. When I don't know how to react, finally a course mate who I believe is natural at having conversation with the elderly, came to rescue me T.T

I typed so long about my uselessness just to explain why I think I have no passion in being a pharmacist! In fact, 80% of the people in my group didn't want to be a pharmacist. They wanted to study something else,  but their parents insist they study pharmacy. In a way, I also studied pharmacy because of my dad, because he said pharmacist can earn a lot =.= Well, I don't know what else to study anyway! I have no passion in nothing! I really don't know! I'm easily bored so when I love something it couldn't last. Or maybe I'm just that kind of person who's 三分钟热度. And these kind of people are always presumed to be people who won't succeed in their lives. Does that mean I won't succeed in my life? But how do you define success? How do you define life? I don't know how to define it for myself also! Do I really wanna be rich?!

Actually in the deep end, everyone just wanna be happy. But it's impossible to be happy all the time. There's no eternal happiness no matter what other people said F3. Life is just like a roller coaster, there always has to be ups and downs. So, I'll just go with the flow then. Maybe my mum is right about me, I never try too hard. So I'll always be mediocre. I just don't want to torture myself :/ Why want to make life so hard?

BTW finding info for my research and I don't think I will pursue a Master's Degree =.= It's damn dull. I don't want to waste my time sitting in front of the computer and reading journals with the hope that I can produce something innovative that can benefit human kind! Not even for the amount of salary that I can get if I've got a PhD!

Water rationing at my hostel starts on this Friday and it will last for ONE WHOLE MONTH! The best part is, it is the time when my dad goes to China, which means I will be staying at the hostel for 3 WHOLE WEEKS. My house also included in the water rationing but at least my house has got water tank so we can bathe, but in hostel I think we have to skip shower if we really got no water T.T

Furthermore, I will miss "I am a Singer" finale on TV this Friday! Damn... I really like that show, the participants are really great singers and they have really powerful bands. Watching it on YouTube is not as great as watching on TV :(

This singer, Zhang Jie, I never really pay attention to him although he is quite famous in China. After he sang this song and got No.1 in that episode, I fell in love with him! He's got this "stage aura"(don't know how to call it in English, but in Chinese it's 台风) and great singing skills!




Haih... Time is ticking... 1 hour gone after I finish typing this post =.=